fuck the muffin man... we got cookies YAY!!! (c00kie_nazi) wrote in retardxenophobe,
fuck the muffin man... we got cookies YAY!!!

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Im lost without you

Where is my Britt??? Its been too damn long...I know I havent been the most socialable person these past few days, but I havent seen you online...already miss talking to you, DAMN YOU for making me dependent!!! (: But i still love it in an odd, self-fullfilling way. Damn, you and Mal are the only girls that have the ability to hold that power over me, GOOD JOB!! Guess I should allow you two have the power more than a damn guy...fuckin bastards. But I think I might have found a good one...hes from Virginia, so sweet and cool. Has the cutest little accent, but then again, who fucking really knows, right? God, i could go into bitching mode right now...should i? hmmm good question. I just understand why they have no consideration for other peoples feelings...yea, i know theres the few out there that do, shit I found one...but then one day he decided he didnt care anymore, or if he does, which im hoping and praying for...he wont even talk to me, not like he knows my numbers anymore..but i dont know. Im calling him at christmas and civiling asking WHAT THE FUCK!?!?!...see what he has to say, and if its something decent and believable..who knows, might able to forgive, if and only if he shows interest and takes intiative and calls me without me asking...which he fucking use to!! remember when i would run out of art class cuz he was calling?? I want that back again!!- i want to run out of my bio lecture and talk for hours on end. I want to be in love again, whatever that really is.
but then on the other hand, I want to be just like a guy, and go find a hot one, go whisper in his ear..."yeah, wanna play some magic? Lets go to my room, fuck..then you disappear." God, i know that work so easily, but I cant bring myself to do it...i havent had sex or done ANYTHING other than make out with a guy in nearly 4 months now...kinda depressing, but yet again, on the other hand im damn proud of myself. Ok, im gunna shut up now....love you babygirl
your love
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